UNSPOKEN

                                                                                                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                           
So much is said here... 

yet so much more is left unsaid.

So many details explained...

and yet so many left out.

So many emotions made public...

and so many more kept private.

So much effort to be honest...

yet not all can be expressed.

It is not always mine to tell.

Or it is not the time.

Sometimes it is too raw or too new,

unresolved or too personal.

Sometimes I want to let it all out -

kicking & screaming & typing my way to release & relief.

But I can´t.

I love them all too much.

I close myself up with my Audience of One

where I can say & write anything.

Where all can be spoken - yet it is safe.

Uttered - yet held secretly guarded.

Written - yet not published.

He is the fairest & purest of audiences.

There are no cares about how or why anything is said.

I hurt no one, reveal no secrets.
I speak & write, unedited.

He listens & counsels, unrehearsed.

It is a hard balance, this cyber world,

this instant audience,

this friends & strangers at fingertip.   

I want to share our story,

be genuine & transparent throughout this pain

to let you all see - and feel - what it is like.

To encourage you in your faith,

in your own journey.

I also long to see how He shows up

and to have it recorded for my children.

I yearn for them to see that 

with Him all things are possible

and that He is longing for authentic faith -

not a religion but an honest face-to-face,
walk-it-out-every-minute-of-every-day relationship. 

I am on a quest here

of writing, of recording

of honesty, of vulnerability

of encouraging, of discipling

of mistakes, of imperfection

of real life and real faith.

I hope you will hang in there with us

to see how this story ends.

Photo by: Federica Rainó