"...after you have done everything...stand."
There are days in this last year plus that just getting out of bed has been a huge victory. Standing and walking have been huge, too. In the midst of a fierce, draining battle, standing is actually quite a remarkable and courageous act.
I know these verses are clearly couched in the heart of some of the most powerful and specific teaching on spiritual warfare in the NT. Sometimes we differentiate between "trials" and "spiritual warfare" when really there is a complex overlap. Isn't it all about living in a visible earthly realm with a heavenly invisible perspective? Isn't it all about "making known the mystery" through our lives - especially in our suffering - whatever the catalyst or form our suffering has? It may be that "simply standing" shows others God's amazing grace in far more tangible & dramatic ways than walking or running.
I have yet to meet someone who likes to be weak or to just "be standing" but if we had any kind of perspective on what it takes for a lot of us to "just stand", they would hold our deepest respect!
On my days when discouragement hovers over me because I get caught up focusing on how long it is taking to recover my physical strength & energy during this time of grief, how little I seem to accomplish in a day compared to before, the anxiety that quickly rises up in me in the face of any stress, the yo-yo of emotions that still overwhelm me, my lack of usual vision & passion in our work, my diminished emotional capacity for people and the spiritual questions that haunt me...I have to remind myself that it is just a day for standing. "Just stand," He whispers to me, "Today, just stand."
So I am trying to rest in my standing. To be patient in my standing, to be ok with my standing. To let others stand with me and to let the world see that I am "just standing" at a time when I could be laying down. Oh I pray they will see the mystery and grace of my standing!
In the words of Melbourne Street Artists Avant-Garde:
First photo by: Hamed Masoumi